Quite A While Now...

Been a while since I last posted something. Like what...two years ago? Pathetic much. No wonder my imagination's deteriorating. I never practice my writing skills.

I'm currently yearning to write something up. A short story, a fiction, whatever. I just need to put my imagination to use. If it's still there, that is. I don't feel my imagination anymore. It feels so distant. And I'm dying for it to return.

I think my OC gets in the way. My moods. My if-the-slightest-detail-is-wrong-i-might-as-well-trash-it trait. Doesn't do me too well since I can't think up unique things anymore. Everything seems so...been there, done that.

It's the fear of being told, "You stole this idea." "This isn't your work." I've flamed people who've written up things like that, so I fear being flamed the same.

I can never keep myself on one thing. When an idea that doesn't seem to fit in the story comes along, I put it into another story, as if I were saving it for later. Then I end up working up a whole different plot, messing everything up.

The worst thing is, when I'm writing something up, I seem to only do one paragraph per sitting. What gets in the way? The words. I can't seem to find the right words. The perfect words. And I hate it when something sounds wrong. I've read some of my work over, and I keep on telling myself, "This would have sounded better." "What in the heck did I just put there? So wrong..."

Personality issues? I think so. Any advice would be much appreciated.